I made the decision to have prolapse surgery in late October.  I announced it early November with a bit of apprehension…. But I felt so much love and support from my community.

I let the shame of deciding to have surgery go while at the same time witnessing that others feel that same shame.  I am hoping to help others navigate the decision so they too can drop the shame.

Of course I still questioned if my decision was the right one.  I felt anxiety build in my body.

When I feel anxious, I feel it in my chest.  It is like an ache.  My heart beats faster and harder and then I feel the ache grow because I am anxious about being anxious.

Does the ache mean something?  Is it my body telling me something?  Do I really want this? 

What if things are worse?  What if it is everything I want it to be?  What if?  What if?  What If?

Listening to the Chopra Meditation app I heard a saying that stuck with me…...