I made the decision to have prolapse surgery in late October. I announced it early November with a bit of apprehension…. But I felt so much love and support from my community.
I let the shame of deciding to have surgery go while at the same time witnessing that others feel that same shame. I am hoping to help others navigate the decision so they too can drop the shame.
Of course I still questioned if my decision was the right one. I felt anxiety build in my body.
When I feel anxious, I feel it in my chest. It is like an ache. My heart beats faster and harder and then I feel the ache grow because I am anxious about being anxious.
Does the ache mean something? Is it my body telling me something? Do I really want this?
What if things are worse? What if it is everything I want it to be? What if? What if? What If?
Listening to the Chopra Meditation app I heard a saying that stuck with me…...