This post is about my decision to have surgery for my prolapse, a rectocele, that I have lived with for over 8 years now.  Surgery is something I have been debating for 4 years and I did not come to this decision lightly but I know it is the right choice for me. 

16 years ago I gave birth to my first son.  I believe that was the start of my rectocele.

My goal for childbirth was to have a vaginal birth with no epidural and no tearing.  

Goal Accomplished!

I did everything I knew about to prepare for birth with the aim of avoiding episiotomy and tearing like my mom had experienced. She also dealt with incontinence and because at the time with my limited knowledge about pelvic health, I equated tearing with incontinence, I felt that because of the fact that I did not tear must mean that my pelvic floor was doing well!

Or so I thought….

I Wish I Had Known
Knowing what I know now, I would have understood that just because there was no external tearing...